A Story of my Life.. "A Lost Love"..

Friendship is all I wanted from you..!
Spoke to you after long, for a reason in mind,
But your sweetness pulled me beyond.
I watched you, forgetting the reason behind.

Never seen your face,never really wished to see,
Just your voice in and around me.
You listened to me, and made me listen too.
You shared moments of your life.

Seeing you for the first time made no difference,
But just pulled you closer and closer.
My mind, My heart has never loved..
Loved anyone before, but for the first time..

Every morning wake up with your thoughts,
Days goes past.. weeks glides by
Pondering and making everyday of mine,
Never to bed without you in my eyes.

I think I am in love, for the first time in my life,
With somebody who I kept calling “my friend”..

I am lying I know, But what am I to do?
Too hard to digest, too good to be true.
Happy I was when you reciprocated me,
I am loved by the one – “I love”.

Dunno where it started, dunno where its gonna end,
But all I know is – I’ll love you till the end.
Never anticipated.. never ever imagined..
I would meet you in life and I would fall in love.

I did’nt tell you anything, neither did you.
But you knew me.. and I did know you too!
I remember the first touch.. I was lost!
And the first kiss, closing my hazel eyes.

Made me feel the sensational love you had for me.
I realized then,  I loved you the most..!
But now, though I know, you love me and so do I,
I feel so lonely, so empty, and so low.

Because your not just far, but million miles away,
Where I cant see you nor hear you.. but just miss you..
You left me all alone over here in a world sans you!
I know you cant help it.. its your destiny.

Your ambition, your life, your workplace,
But cant take it, cant stand the separation.
Though I know you ll come back to me wholly.
I know, where this is going to end one day.

That day will dawn, when we ought to part,
And go in different directions, me-one, you-another;
Its going to be difficult for you and me.
But nobody can stop the destiny..!

Life..
Meetings and partings, all a part of her.
Truly, you’re ‘my first love’.

The love that may not happen again,
The love that can never be reached,
The love that has ebbed down,
The love that has forgotten itself!
                                                                                       
   
                                                                          Oktober, 2005

Diwali was fun.. even without Bursting Crackers!

This Diwali was pretty different from all that i have had. :-) Foremost i was not really excited. Is it cuz I'm ( already ) 22?! Or is it because I'm to the full metamorphosed into a employee from a student. I'm just not able to figure out ! My mum ( as usual ) gave me a big bag of like, maybe, 20 packets of sweet boxes... (most of them from Shrimithai :P) I went around to few houses in my apartment, literally delivering it to them and wishing them for Diwali. Something that really didn't interest me. Imagine, being offered coffee and sweets at 20 different places. I had to really force myself doing such a thing. I have always enjoyed doing them, but this year i felt different, perhaps a little group up. (Maybe i shouldn't.. hehe).

So after the distribution, my house was like how everyother home in India would be on a bright Diwali day. Grandparents and relatives poured in. Getting blessings and making some money went on as usual. :P And then, it was foood time ! :-) It is one of the very few days, when the whole family gets the time to eat together.

When the dusky night sky slipped in, it was time for "another forcing myself "to do, but, for my parents :)
"Bursting Crackers". But this was the first time, i enjoyed Diwali even without bursting crackers.
"Twas Fun" :) It was not for "child labour" that i avoided the bursting.. I have skipped a year bursting crackers, when i was a kid and when Child labour was a little too in preponderance. But, i took over the job of a photographer instead :-) I really never realized my passion for photography until this day. :-) Offcourse, i'm just an amateur. and Offcourse i just have a klutzy dum digital camera. :) So i spent the rest of the evening clicking pictures of the fireworks.. and also capturing the happiness on my parents' face , celebrating Diwali. What more could make me happier this day?? :)